Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Shepherd Lincoln: Our First Year

One night, a very, very long time ago, two young kids were sitting on the bench in front of house. There was a young boy who had walked over to hang out with a young girl and they decided it was nice enough outside to sit and talk.

As they were talking, the subject of children came up and the young girl said, "I want to name my first girl Lauriana. I always wish my parents had used my middle name as my first name, instead of Megan." The boy looked at the girl, smiled, and replied, "I like the name Megan. It suites you... I've always thought my first son would be named Shepherd."

"Why?" Megan asked. " Bryan....It's not because you love German Shepherd dogs...right?"

"No!" Bryan laughed. "Because, I want my son to be a leader. To know others will look up to him and that it's an important job. I want him to help others find their way. To be a light and a guide."

"Well, if we get married and have a son, we'll name him Shepherd."

"Sounds good. If we get married and have a daughter, we'll name her Lauriana."

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Shepherd,

Before your father and I met, before we fell in love, before we dreamed about our future kids' names, you were planned. You were always on the horizon and you were destined to be ours. Before Bryan and I got our lives together, before we married each other and bought our house, you were on our hearts. We knew you would come. You were foretold to us from the very beginning. God nestled you right in our hearts, He prepared us to have you, to hold you, to love you and raise you.

He knew the giggles we would share, He knew your first words. He knew the struggles we could face as mother and child. He saw the love and strength that would come from it. He knew how close our family of three would become.

I doubted for a long time, my boy. I was angry at God. How could He give me such a desire to have you and to have Lauriana and years went by with nothing. Finally, in the beginning of 2012, I gave up. I told God I couldn't bare the sadness. I couldn't hold onto any potential children anymore. I needed to let go.

On September 5, 2012 I found out I was pregnant. My immediate instinct was that it was a boy, that it was our Shepherd. It was a miracle. I was not supposed to be pregnant. It was not supposed to be possible... but there you were.

Week later it was confirmed in front of our family that you were a boy.






We were so happy. So blessed. And while the longing for Lauriana was still there, we were so happy to have our Shepherd boy. 

We had a bit of a rocky start, you and I, but luckily, we made it through and you were born. 









You have the best personality. Always happy, unless you are hungry. You love your daddy, you love your Papa, you moderately tolerate me. 



The first year of your life has been full of the highest highs and the lowest lows for me. You have pushed me and stretched me more than anything else in my life. You have shown me my strength and a whole new level of love. Love I have never experienced. Love I don't know how to show you or give you properly. I'm not equipped with the tools, because my childhood was different. 



But I will do anything for you. I will learn any skill, read any book, right any wrong, fix my flaws, counsel with anyone I can to grow you into a smart, capable, wonderful young man. I will give up my dreams for yours to become reality. I will put you first. I will love you more than I was loved. I will give you more than I was given. I will teach you and learn from you all the days I have left. 

You are the light of my beautiful life, kid. When things get hard. When I feel the clouds roll in, I hold you and things become clear. A weight lifts and I breathe again. You are my joy. 

Your daddy and I, we adore you. You won't remember, but even now as we counsel you to make better decisions, to not bite, to not hit us with your beloved golf clubs, we giggle behind your back because you are so cute. So strong. So decisive. We pretend we aren't, but we are putty in your hands, Bud. Hopefully you don't catch on....

But for your own sake we pretend so we can mold you into a good kid. A good man. A man of God.
















I love you, Shepherd Lincoln. I pray that I do right by you every day. 

Always, 

Momma












CASBO Conference 2014 - Sacramento, CA

When you decide that you want to write, in any platform, you have to figure out what your boundaries are when writing. Usually, I don't write about my job, but considering the fact that there are a few things coming up, I figured I would lightly touch on a few things that have been going on lately. 


In September, the boss who hired me moved on to another job and in November, a new boss was hired. She is the Chief Business Official at a neighboring district and she is now working for both districts. She used to work at our school and did my job under my old boss for quite sometime before moving up into her new position, and I've known her as the (now former) boss of my best friend and fellow blogger, Denise. 

Anyways, I was stoked, because I think she is great and it has worked out so well. She is teaching me a lot and has encouraged me to go back to school, which is what is on the horizon. 

Many of you know that my dream was to be a stay at home mom. To be able to raise my babies and invest in their lives. Unfortunately, life doesn't always work out the way we hope and I've decided that it is time to invest in my career. Both feet in. 

In order to do that, I need to go back to school. I am now going through the motions to enroll and complete a CBO training course so that I can further my career in school business. It is an exciting and scary time for me. I haven't done homework in a very long time. However, I'm ready to do this. If everything works out, I will start in July. 

Wednesday, before I left for the conference, I made sure to give my boy lots of kisses and snuggles!

Apart from the first year I was hired and last year, since I was pregnant, I've gone to the California School Business Officials (CASBO) Conference each year it was held. It is the largest gathering in of school business people in the state and it is an intense conference! Every minute is accounted for at the conference and we are non-stop from Wednesday to Saturday. 

This year was great. I'm not going to go into the actual information I learned, although plenty, because it's layered and would probably bore you to tears. Suffice it to say I learned a lot from it and I met a lot of great people! 

I just thought I'd share some of the fun parts of the conference. 



Overnight curls and make-up ready for the conference!
(Overnight curls -  Dry hair (or second day), curl hair, pin curls until completely cool. Unravel and spray with hairspray. Let dry completely. Brush curls gently and wrap in a loose bun on your head. Wake up, touch up a few curls with curling iron and boom! So easy.)


My outfit for Thursday. So many women get super fancy with heels and they are dying mid-day. There is a LOT of walking. My thoughts on conference style: Dress cute-casual with extra comfy shoes and make-up that makes you feel confident. Usually, the first day everyone is really fancy, the next they are in nice jeans and comfortable shoes and the last day they wear maxi skirts and dresses with flip flops. It's so funny. Never wear heels when at a conference! Dress professionally but comfortably. There is a ton of running around and you never know how many sessions you'll go to where there is standing room only. No bueno.

We had a Payroll/HR Luncheon and the speaker was Molly McGee Hewitt, who is the Director of CASBO. I was so excited to find out she was the keynote, mainly because I am a huge fan. She is one of those women that you meet and you just know she's a good, wholesome person. She has a great story and I've never heard one person say anything negative about her. I would love to be mentored by her someday. (And I totally fangirled when I met her.) She was a delight!

On Thursday night, there is a Gala that a lot of people attend. Basically it's food and games and dancing. There was a guy there from an entertainment company, I had the card, I need to dig it out of all my conference things. Anyways, he was amazing. I have never seen balloon animals so intricately done before. He made me an elephant (cause, duh), Mario, a ladybug, a leopard and Hello Kitty! 


They had to tear me away from this spin-the-wheel game. I kept hitting big on the number 1, that stack of yellow chips is mine. :)



Waiting for our balloon animals/figures!


#elephantsforlyfe






 




The yellow balloon animal was a Leopard, it sat on her shoulders and hugged her head! So cute.


A blurry picture of the entertainer. He was really kind. 

On Friday night, the businesses that help support CASBO and the CASBO Conference hold hospitality suites, where you can cruise through, network, eat food and drink. Some have music and some have activities. They are really fun! 


This is our group, all from neighboring cities in the same county, only one from a neighboring county. A great group of girls!


Here we are with a new friend. He is from TASBO (Texas Association of School Business Officials). He was really kind! 


My boss and I. When there is a major change at work, it can always be daunting because you don't know if you'll...mesh. We definitely mesh. She has been so encouraging to me about my career. I'm so thankful for her!


On the top floor of the Hyatt, one of the larger companies held their hospitality suite. You could see the capitol from both the balconies! 


Yes, I had a little bit of wine. It's rare but it DOES happen! I'm a Cabernet Sauvignon kind of gal. :)


The Capitol Building in Sacramento.




Then came my favorite part of the evening - Casino night! Obviously, no real money exchanged hands because of laws here in California. Each person got a ticket for 500 chips, which you could exchange for one raffle ticket. I have played Texas Hold 'Em every casino night that I've attended the conference. I always sit next to the same person, who has been CASBO President. He is really neat and he teaches me as we play. It is SO fun! 



I sent pictures to Bryan and my father-in-law Rick throughout the night, because #winning.





The pile just keeps on growing! :)



I ended up winning over 5500 chips, so I got a bunch of tickets! 


Everyone at our table was super impressed with my card shark skills. I had a moment there that I was losing because I was getting the worst cards. Lots of low numbers, off suit. It was annoying. Finally I stopped chasing any hands and soon, the cards started to show up for me. I love playing Texas Hold 'Em and my colleagues couldn't believe how good I was at it! I assured them that I would never play the same way with my own money because I work too hard for it. But, I've been known to make my father-in-law and Bryan play with change. 

These nights were late and it made getting up at 5:45 in the morning to get ready for the long day of sessions hard, but it was worth it. I packed in and soaked up as much information and knowledge as I could and had a lot of fun in between. 

Can't wait for next year!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

L'Oréal Lash Out Butterfly Mascara

Last night I ran to CVS and picked up a few makeup items (I had a bunch of coupons/extra bucks that were going to expire) and one of the items I got was this mascara. How many times do you think I'll poke myself in the eye with it, until I get used to that little flared section? I'm gonna guess fifty. At least.
Have you used this mascara? Is it gimmicky or does it totally rock your eyelashes? I'm excited to give it a go!

Tribe Tuesday: Ravioli for Breakfast?

Tribe Tuesday is where I talk about all things family/kid related, whether it's a recap of a family adventures, my experiences in parenting or an update on my kid(s). Tribe Tuesday will always be real, varying from the good, the bad and the awesome

I usually ask Bryan to send me pictures of Shepherd throughout the day because I miss him and I hate that I'm missing all of these precious moments. Typically, Bryan will send maaaaaybe one a day. If I'm lucky. 

Today he sent me this one: 


And this is the conversation we had about it.